im done

Ive always called myself a Christian. I was raised in the church, taught that God was good and that if you just kept the faith, things would work out. But lately? Im struggling to hold onto any of that. It started with my mom getting sick, and I prayed like I was supposed to. I begged God to heal her. Nothing. Then, I lost my job out of nowhere. And my brother? Hes spiraling deeper into addiction, and its like no ones even listening when we try to help him. Its been one thing after another, and it feels like I'm just getting punched over and over again. WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS? I cant keep pretending like everything happens for a reason or that theres some bigger plan behind all this. If there is a God, then WHY DOES HE LET THIS HAPPEN? Why does He stand by and let my family suffer? Im sick of hearing about faith and hope when nothing ever changes. Ive been praying, Ive been doing everything they say, and NOTHING is getting better. Im honestly getting ANGRY. Like, Im done pretending that this is some kind of test or that theres a lesson to learn here. If Gods supposed to be loving and all-knowing, then WHERE IS HE? Im starting to think this whole Christian thing isnt for me anymore. Im tired of being let...